Fear and it's ever controlling grip - and how to love through it all

Things have been changing for the last few months and I am VERY excited by it.

I don't think I've updated since the burn - and there's definitely reason for that.
Upon returning I questioned EVERYTHING about my life: My job, my passions, my creativity, my worth and my love for everything in my life. And how I even came in to having such an amazing life - let alone was I worth it all? Did I deserve it and could I keep it up long enough to be happy for forever? Was it even real?

My friends mentioned therapy and I found a highly recommended therapist. The week of the appointment was a week of working on my communication - if I couldn't communicate with the people in my life, how could I hope to communicate with a therapist? I started some serious self growth then and there and opened my heart and soul to those I hold dear. It was scary, but very worth it. Being my most authentic self was probably the biggest load off my shoulders I have ever experienced. And the best part? After revealing how I had really been feeling and how I had questioned everything and everyone in my life and why they were there and what I was supposed to learn from it - after holding all the questions inside for close to a month, the fear just melted away with kind and loving acceptance. The most genuine feelings of love and gratitude for sharing my fears and worries is what I was met with at the end of that dark and scary tunnel that I thought had no light.
So what was I afraid of?
The simple fact that I wasn't enough. That I wasn't doing enough - or being enough.
And adversely that I was too much. That how I felt was too much for one person to handle - too much for my friends to handle. That I had hidden a large portion of me and my feelings away for the fear that they were too big! That I felt too much for too many people - and therefore couldn't feel enough for just ONE person.
But I realize that this is not the case and I LOVE loving people. And not only am I worth being loved in return, but everyone is worth the love I have and it will never be depleted - especially if it is coming from a place of security.