Just a quicky before work. T-minus 4 days and counting.

My last day at work. I am unsure of how to deal with this. I am used to having all the time in the world when it comes to my job and now I have to condense my days into an understandable report for my boss. When I leave, no one will be taking over my duties other than my boss, who has also taken on the role of the graphics department. To do outreach, event organizing, networking AND advertising while balancing budgets and everyone elses needs is just a bit too much.

I am personally dealing with an overwhelming amount of guilt when it comes to leaving. I have never left Tacoma for this long of a time before. I am leaving duties that I have felt responsible for for the last 3 years, and it's odd. It is odd to have this sense of duty to my job. It is something that I honestly enjoyed and I could not have asked for a better time, co-workers or boss.


I am leaving the occupation. I feel guilty about this as well. There was so much that I wanted to do, and I started taking on more than I should have. I feel like I am abandoning my family when it comes to the things they are doing; The tasks they have started; the path they are walking. They have some amazing ideas and I want to be around to see them implemented, but such is life.


This time that I will be spending away will have much to do with thinking about how these actions have played out across the world and what this means for our generation and the ones to follow. I do not want to run from the world around us, I want to help it. But how can you think of solving a problem (that has been prevalent your whole life) when you have only lived one way? I have had brief experiences in community based living situations (rainbow gathering) so I am hoping to bring something back that will apply.



On an ending note: To those who have NOT moved your money from big banks (myself included I know, SHAME on me) What will you do when everyone else has done this and taken the money that you thought the bank would hold on to so safely? When the banks collapse like they did during the Depression of the 20's and 30's, will you kiss your money goodbye? Will you take your American dollar out before this happens? I may not have this chance, I may have to kiss my money goodbye if the collapse happens while I am gone. But I mean, how much is the American dollar worth now, or when the collapse happens? Arbitrary value, IMO. I'd like to watch it go up in flames (figuratively, of course).